2020 Word of the Year: Restore

Hi friends,

The past few years have been interesting, to say the least.

In 2017 I lost my Father in Law,

In 2018, I lost my Mother in Law

In 2019, we had my Mother in Law’s funeral, found out we would be moving after only a year in Florida, and a whole lot of other things happened that would make this blog post way longer than it needs to be.

In 2020, I have begun the restoration project in my life. Between 2016 and now, I have lost a lot, I have lost more I thought I would, and mostly in the process of grieving, caretaking, parenting, wife-ing, and being, I lost me.

I have been the most watered-down version of myself to keep myself from having a complete breakdown.

I had to be the strong one. I had to be the present one. I had to be the logical one. All the things… The hardest part about being the strong one is that there is no one to be the strong one for you.

Outside of the minimum times, I could speak with my husband, who was an ocean away, I had no one.

The past few years of my life were the hardest I had ever gone through.

I have been homeless, I have been kidnapped and raped, I have grown up with a mother hooked on drugs and alcohol, that took me to the drug houses with her. I have seen things that I never ever want anyone I love to see. My life has been hard, but nothing prepared me for the pain of losing important people to you, especially when you are the one doing everything you can to keep them alive.

By the grace of God, I survived, and I am grateful for that.

My word for last year was growth. I grew, thankfully, despite all of the stumbles and falls, I was still able to grow. I grew as a person, as a wife, as a mom. I am thankful for all the moments that allowed me to grow, and I am grateful that despite it all, I remained focused and devoted to helping my family thrive throughout the transition.

We are now settled in our new house in the Mid-west (more on that later), the kids start their new school tomorrow, I have an excellent job with fantastic coworkers, and my husband is living his calling of being a Chaplain.

As I reflected on the past years, one thing kept repeating to me. It was this quote, “I will make beauty from the ashes.”  This quote is from Isaiah 61:3, and the full verse goes like this:

To all who mourn in Israel,
    he will give a crown of beauty for ashes,
a joyous blessing instead of mourning,
    festive praise instead of despair.
In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks
    that the Lord has planted for his own glory.

Every time I read this, I believe that 2020 will be my year of joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. Restoration of the losses, rejuvenation of the spirit, the remaking of me.

So friends, with that, what is your word of the year?

 

Until Next Taste,
Foodie Finds Home

Here’s to an amazing 2020

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Foodie Finds Home

Military Spouse, Mom x4, Foodie, Semi-crunchy, Travel Aficionado, and Fitness Enthusiast sharing our life and kitchen while learning to make home our favorite place to be.

11 thoughts on “2020 Word of the Year: Restore

  1. You are such a strong woman! You can definitely be proud of yourself!!
    “Restore” is such a great word for this year, it’s always important not to lose yourself too much and take some “me time”, even if it seems impossible to do so in certain situations ❤
    For 2020 my motto or word is minimalism. I want to live more minimal, try to purchase nothing new for a year (clothes, tech, etc) and live simpler and with less tech 🙂 Lets see how it goes 🙂

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  2. My word is completion. Actually, this is a recycled word but I truly mean it this time. I finally completed the first test run of a podcast I wanted to start with my spiritual sister. Also, two other friends are co-hosting. I will complete one of the books I have been working on for awhile. I can’t let fear, past mistakes and poor decisions keep holding me back and making me feel incomplete.

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  3. Losing people we are close to is a scar that never goes away, no matter how hard we try to be strong. But, it is also what makes us strong and you come across as a strong woman. I hope this year brings you only good things and lots of success in all you do.

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  4. So sorry to hear about your struggles! Looks like you are conquering them like a champ. 🙂 I wish you the best in 2020! 🙂

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  5. Wow, what a story. I know how it feels to be ‘that’ person, as I went through something very terrible a number of years back, and when I finally came out of it, I had lost myself. I wish you every blessing in restoring yourself in 2020. My word for 2020 is ‘persevere.’ I have a lot I want to do with my life and my business in 2020. I just have to keep going. Thank you for a lovely, heart-touching post.

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  6. My SIL is the strong one. Like you, she is so strong people don’t usually think she needs anyone to lean on for support and she can get burnt out.

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